Brutal Honesty

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 17:33:27 GMT

Its been pointed out that most people I know on here don't realize that I'm pretty much only on Facebook now. (Stefanie Gasko - add me!)

In anycase, I'm moving to Allendale for the next three years. Yup, renting an apartment for year-round usage. ^^

I don't have a car anymore. It took a shit in Walker, MI and decided to stay there.

This leads to me not knowing when I'll get to see everyone I know in RL again. But, I do have room for people to come visit me!

Go to CBeech.com/Allendale.htm to see some of the pics of where I'm staying. ^^ It's pretty.

Anything else exciting?
I'm probably going to be having a Pampered Chef party. Let me know if ya wanna come. Aunts and relatives will probably be buying us stuff, and if you buy some stuffs then I'll have more credits to get some free things for my new place! That would be very exciting.

I'm out of the shithole with my GPA! ^^ Thanks Macomb for giving some easy classes to transfer and raise that back up! Teehee. But I worked hard and I did it! I'm rather proud of myself for pushing through and getting it done with all the obstacles, as everyone is telling me that I should be.

I have some manga for sale up on Amazon, because I'm trying hard to get my first month rent without straining my dad who just filed for bankruptcy. So, if you're interested in the following titles, I can take them down and sell 'em to ya instead. It would really help me out. ^^

Naruto #1,4,5
Saiyuki #1
Wish #1
Someday's Dreamers #1,2
Angel/Dust
Broken Angels #1
I Wish... #1

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 17:16:15 GMT

Kit was mowing his ~~field~~ lawn and suddenly stopped. He came running inside to me claiming he almost had a heart attack... then hands me one of the most beautiful and surprisingly docile garter snakes I've ever seen.

She's currently wrapped around my arm as I type.

Going to put her back once he's done with mowing. Wouldn't want her in the way, and for sure wouldn't want to keep a wild animal out of its natural environment.

Really big :D today.

Thu, 28 May 2009 21:22:10 GMT

Wed, 27 May 2009 18:00:43 GMT

I live... to some extent.

Summer class. I hate statistics now...

BTW: Bruises are good. :D

Thu, 30 Apr 2009 15:37:04 GMT

ANT 311 Native Peoples of North America - B

ANT 315 Comparative Religions - C

CLA 250 Classical Art and Archaeology - B+

ENG 382 SWS Nature Writing - B-

*giant sigh of relief*

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 19:54:27 GMT

I'm done with finals. That's it. Homeward bound tomorrow.

Gotta start packing up my dorm. Last night in the place I've called home for the past 9 months. Lots of good memories here. Good times with friends over, boyfriend staying for weeks at a time, lots of studying and chilling and enjoying the trees out my window. My new place is a single-person... I'll be alone without a roomie, and parts of that sound nice, but I think I'll miss Trang a bit. No trees out my window either... but at least I won't have to hide from fireworks going off every Friday night during football season.

But I made it. I went through a whole year here. I fucked up the first semester, I didn't know what to expect and I put myself in a state of the worst depression I've felt in over a decade since I tried to kill myself. But I made it. I raised my grades. I'm coming back next year. Kit will be here, too.

Maybe now that I'm more accustomed to it all, I'll actually put in a real effort to join clubs. Anthro, Archae, Geology, Anime, maybe even Alpha Phi Omega. I kinda really want the last one, ya know?

My dad and Kit will be here tomorrow morning to help load up some cars and get me back to Detroit. I think I'm gonna miss being here a lot. On the other hand, I want to go to the D-Zoo, Stony Creek, and just hand out with people I haven't been able to see as much. And well, JAFAX is just around the corner. I'll be back on campus soon enough.

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 23:19:24 GMT

Yeah, I'm a little ahead of myself. But every girl dreams right?

http://mistresspluto.deviantart.com/art/Wedding-Dress-120051968#

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 02:24:44 GMT

I'm graduating from GVSU in Fall 2012.

Then what? I might go work with the Peace Corps in Belize, where I'm already going to be spending a summer studying Anthro abroad. I might find some Archaeological field work to jump start my career.

Or...

I can move to Oregon. Portland to be precise.

Why? Oh so many reasons...

1. Portland State University - Where I want to go to Grad School. (For a Masters, ~$35,000 total + major emphasis on Native Americans.)

2. For over 50 years, Portland (and Oregon) have been strongly Democratic. The city currently has a very openly gay mayor. They strongly support the arts and nature in the city with many museums, parks, arboretums, surrounding nature reserves, and the zoo. They are the 2nd most eco-friendly city, only to Reykjavík, Iceland.

3. The summer highs are in the 80s, the winter lows are in the high 30s. Low precipitations rates. The only natural disasters they see is from the far away active volcanoes that don't mean much more than ash when they actually do erupt. Doesn't that sound perfect for me?

4. The State of Oregon hires archaeologists to work on their team regularly. The biggest area of job openings in Portland and all of Oregon is in Natural Resources Management, Kit's field.

5. Kit and I have already said Oregon is where we want to live... On top of me now finding all of this out, especially grad school, I almost can't contain myself.

On the other hand, Peace Corps will pay my student loans for me if I work for them... And I would love to be in Belize. Again, so would Kit... The country is rich with Archaeology for me, and it is dedicated to sustainable development and preservation of nature and wildlife.

Something tells me that I'm going to end up doing both... This isn't just a dream. It's an ambition and goal. And anyone who knows me also knows how hard I can push to get what I want.

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 02:14:51 GMT

The campus is very happy... and party party party...

And I'm stuck alone, inside, with a small quantity of alcohol left over from when Stina came to visit.

This bodes not well...

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 05:40:30 GMT

I feel pretty much raped in the face at the moment.

Over the next 4 weeks I have 40pgs worth of papers to do (That's 6 papers in 4 classes, and weekly reading responses). All (except the weekly ones) including on-site first hand research. Fuck Fuck Fuckity Fuck.

On the upside... I'm getting at least a B+ or higher in all my classes as of midterms. A's in two of them. Woot woot.

This is for Mike (and anyone else who wants to...) cuz I know he's lurking and reading.
http://melissa-writing.livejournal.com/354694.html
Hope you enjoy reading that!

Sun, 22 Feb 2009 19:07:14 GMT

I'm studying 8 hours a day.
I'm eating crap for food, therefore poor nutrition.
I'm stressed not only about midterms, but worrying about other things too...
I haven't been sleeping again.

If I'm cranky and bitchy, please understand... I'm a college student, and it's midterms week.

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 16:31:23 GMT

Well, I did it. I've officially left the Twilight fandom. Doing so simply by removing the Team Jacob community from my communities... After the stark realization I was the oldest person there, at age 21.

-_-

Still love my werewolves, but the rest of the characters can kiss my ass, seriously. Meyer's writing is truly shit, and the movie certainly didn't add anything to garner my support of the fandom.

Goodbye Jacob Black, you were loved by the minority of us who actually liked our men to stick around and not abuse/kidnap/buy fancy gifts to shut us up/eat us.

Now if only Melissa Marr's Fragile Eternity would be released sooner...

Wed, 18 Feb 2009 06:03:48 GMT

Things I want the most right now:

Neil Gaiman books
Fragile Eternity to be released
GV pants/shirt/hoodie... something to represent.

My 50-bagillion essays to be magically done for this entire semester. Fuck me.

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 22:25:13 GMT

What's a girl to do when your boyfriend gives you wool socks for Valentine's Day?

...

Cry tears of absolute JOY, of course! I've been complaining about how cold my feet are, and walking in slush and snow, and that I've developed something quite annoying called Chilblains on my toes. (Don't look at google pics, those are extreme!)

;_; He actually does listen!

To his benefit, he also bought me chocolate covered cherries that he remembered are my favorites, made me a bubble bath which he knew would relax me with how stressed I've been (and made sure to get soap that wasn't tested on animals and 100% natural ingredients, with a green sponge of awesomeness and win), and desperately searched for potted lilies (fav flower) because he didn't want to give me something cut that would just die on me. He failed at the last one, but the thought still makes me bounce around like lolololololol!! *giggle*

In other news, I got a 92/100 on my ANT 315 midterm. That is quite exciting. Only one point off of each essay (not giving an example of a religion in one, and not using the names of the steps of revitalization movements in the other) and 3 multiple choice questions wrong. One I had no clue on, and two I had already struggled with the concept of...

Overall, I'm quite happy.

Writer's Block: You Wouldn't Understand

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 04:16:51 GMT

Almost everyone coins or uses expressions that make sense to only a few people. What word or phrase do you use most often that you have to explain the meaning of to others?

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Often, you will hear me say, "True Story. Read it in the Bible. Book of Kit."

The Book of Kit, derived from Kit's e-mail which he didn't even realize at the time I pointed out was funny because he looks like Jesus (bookofkit@... But now it is basically his "lost book of the bible" life story in which he claims I'm the lead female, like Mary Magdalene. :P

If something happens, or if there is an opinion I favor, or I'm just being silly, I'll say that. Or just a shortened version thereof.

It isn't in any way a "bash" on religion, as some people have taken to it thinking that I mean sarcastically that the Bible isn't true. (Which... well, we know my opinion on that...) But I wouldn't truly be saying it to disrepect the object containing a person's whole belief system.

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 02:55:23 GMT

So... a cure for homesickness.

89X has a live online radio. Meaning, what you're listening to in Detroit is what I'm listening to on my laptop in Grand Rapids.

This makes me happy.

Wed, 14 Jan 2009 16:47:40 GMT

Should I do this:

 EXHIBIT INTERPRETER: Greet visitors, offer visitors a brief interpretation of museum’s permanent and temporary exhibits
TRAINING - Training seminar, observations, reviewing provided background
materials and on the job training.
REQUIREMENTS - Application, interview/orientation with Volunteer Manager
COMMITMENT - Two years and a minimum 3 hours per week.
SHIFTS – Sunday & Saturday 12:30PM to 3:30PM, Monday to Friday 9:30AM to 12:30PM & 12:30PM to 3:30PM

I can possibly get to stand around and tell people about the Native American exibits.
The downsides: Standing around, talking to people.
The upsides: Native Americans, confidence building, possible expansion into other areas within the museum.

Questionable: Two year commitment, time away from schoolwork.

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 03:55:49 GMT

*sigh*

Writer's Block: On the Bus

Sun, 11 Jan 2009 00:59:48 GMT

Jam a bunch of people together in a tight space like a bus or the subway and something crazy is bound to happen. What's the most memorable thing you've seen on mass transit?

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I've only ridden mass transit thrice. Twice last semester, once to just have fun and once to go to Meijer. And once so far this semester to go to my downtown class... I'm sure something will happen eventually.

Writer's Block: Prepared Answer

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 01:39:40 GMT

What is the one question you've always wanted someone to ask you?

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Why do you do this to yourself?

Sat, 03 Jan 2009 22:08:51 GMT

Plane tickets? Not too expensive. If I am not driving back and forth to Roseville every other weekend or more, then I am actually SAVING money by 1 or even 2 roundtrip tickets for the whole semester.

Things I'm looking forward to:
- Stina's Shower
- Kit's b-day present
- Spring Break

Things I'm still not sure about:
- Valentine's Day / Kit's birthday

Sat, 03 Jan 2009 11:34:53 GMT

I'm leaving tomorrow.

How long will it be until I see everyone?

How long will I be gone?

Will I survive?

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 08:19:28 GMT

a. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question.

b. Tag eight people.

01. What are your nicknames?
Stef, Stefie, variations on spelling...

02. Everyone has a secret a little geek in them, what thing makes you geek?
So much. I don't think a single post has the word capacity. Hell, look at my icons.

03. Would you rather die suddenly with no pain but no prep time or die with some pain but time to prepare?
Pain. For sure.

04. How many colors are you wearing now?
Green and gray turtleneck.

05. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
Mostly an introvert in personal things. Extroverted in all things fun and socially questionable.

06. What was the last book you read?
I'm kinda in the middle of a lot. The last one I finished was a Emily Dickenson collection, or maybe Ink Exchange by Melissa Marr.

07. Do you nap a lot?
I kinda don't sleep at all.

08. What would you do with an extra five hundred dollars right now--the only catch being that you have to spend it within a week?
Buy Christmas presents, gas, and school books. Maybe some new shirts and socks.

09. What classes are you taking right now? And if you're not in school anymore, what's your job?
>.> Lets not talk about school.

10. Based on your life, and be truthful. Have you had a lot of life experience?
I've had book experience. I want to get out and do more, see more, be more. I can't give up yet just for that reason.

11. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
about a half hour just to pull myself outta bed. Another 5 to re-do my ponytail and put on clean clothes.

12. What websites do you visit daily?
Facebook, Livejournal, Hotmail, Deviantart, Youtube (currently watching new Xmen cartoon)

13. What TV shows are you watching this season?
Venture Bros, kinda. Robot Chicken. I missed way too much Bones and House...

14. Do you like to clean?
Sometimes when my OCD kicks in. It helps clear my mind.

15. What's the last song that got stuck in your head?
Uh... *shrug*

16. What's the last movie you saw?
Hancock, at Macomb Mall with Kit.

17. What are you doing right now?
Watching Kit play Soul Cal 3, revelling in my lvl 80 prot warrior awesomeness.

18. Name something that irritates you.
I'm very curious and generally interested in knowing things... so secrets get under my skin.

19. What are you most looking forward to in the coming month?
Not being at school or with my mom.

20. Tell me something you love about the person who tagged you.
That Scott love my titties so very much and doesn't scream like a little girl at the thought of them... oh wait...

I tag whomever feels like doing this.

Ode for the Sailor

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 12:28:29 GMT

O, I traverse the world with a maiden strapped to my bow.
My ships sails pristine and white – almost blinding in the sun.
It glides through water with ambition to be the fastest there ever was.
But it is best seen when the waves reflecting sun splash upon my maiden.

O, she is made of wood, but by the face you’d never tell.
Metal chains cross her body, in both protection and possession.
Her eyes are wide – Taking in everything the world offers.
And its faint, but a smile does show on her carved face.

O, the maiden will guide my ship through the roughest seas.
She will not fear even the darkest of nights or highest of waves.
My ship will cut through water, the determination on her face.
All the while, she is my truest servant bound to my vessel.

O, if anyone were to realize that this maiden were alive,
Then perhaps this truth would leave them shocked and stunned.
I will keep her secret tightly guarded – lips sealed in honor.
She will be kept locked in her chains until the time comes.

O, ‘tis true, one day the maiden will wish to be free of my ship.
She will take her own path and never look to see what is left behind.
This is the day that I’m sure will come, but fear to know the when.
For who truly can guess when a woman’s heart will break free, all for the love of a sailor?

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 10:36:14 GMT

First thing I'm doing when my next student loan check is deposited?
Nope, not groceries or new socks.

I'm buying concert tickets for http://www.ffdistantworlds.com/ .

Birthday present for Kit. Shh..!